My first love

High school is very difficult you see you have many diffrent types of people. me i like to hang out with the people who are strange but not afraid for some fun. we all are diffrent in our own way you see we have people who are funny and wear black and it doesnt bug us at all.then we have tnhe very oppinionated people that we still love to death.then we have me i am strange boy crazy and sometimes quiet but i love to go on adventure.hi i am sarah and freshman year was tough but i only failed one class and only one semester i have dealt with a broken heart and bad grades and the drama for one school year but i am only a sophmore. Freshman year i was not allowed to date at all untill i was a sophmore [btw i am now allowed to date]but i chose not to wait and break the rules that my parents had set for everyone.i started to go out with this guy named tyler but i was soo afraid about him being a junior and me being a freshman. so me being so immature i started to get scared so i kept breaking up with him soo no one would know.then i got used to me and him and he started to break up with me. we ended up getting into a fight and stopped talking. today i IM'd him and now were friends again. the only thing is i still love him but we both have someone right now and i am not sure i could handle going through everything again. I dont want to but he is my first love and i dont think i could ever change the way i feel for him ever. before and even now everytime someone says his name or i see him i just get butterflies in my stomach and my heart starts to ache cause i know we could never replace what we had nor should we ever replace it for we had just started to be friends again and i dont want to risk that ever again.he is a good friend and a good persont to talk to but he is not the one that i am looking for he is just and forever will be my FIRST LOVE!!!